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NEW POLITICAL PARTY

Join my new political party:
GOP SBBC
GRUMPY OLD PEOPLE
SUCCESSFUL BABY BOOMER CLAN
The enemy within may have worked covertly to take over our nation – while we worked hard and raised families; but the fluffy plump lady isn’t singing yet
in public (me).
WE OUTNUMBER THEM
IF WE ALL VOTE
AS A BLOCK
OF RIGHTEOUS CITIZENS.
Our numbers are so large that if they cheat this time – it will be obvious to every woman, man, and child on our nation.
Let us together take back our nation.
Beyond the election, Congress doesn’t want millions of Grumpy Old People to show up in DC in our RV’s to politely talk to them.
We started and ran the businesses and industries through the glory years of America. Not one more business should be lost on our watch. I wanna go to Heaven leaving our nation on solid ground.

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HOW SCHEISTERS IN WASHINGTON MISLEAD SO MANY AMERICANS

I copied the transcript of James B. Comey’s spoken statement regarding Hillary Clinton’s Personal Email usage a few days ago, and added my comments / explanations in bold italicized type . . .

Statement by FBI Director James B. Comey on the Investigation of Secretary Hillary Clinton’s Use of a Personal E-Mail System
Washington, D.C.
July 05, 2016
FBI National Press Office
(202) 324-3691
Remarks prepared for delivery at press briefing.

Good morning. I’m here to give you an update on the FBI’s investigation of Secretary Clinton’s use of a personal e-mail system during her time as Secretary of State. After a tremendous amount of work over the last year, the FBI is completing its investigation and referring the case to the Department of Justice for a prosecutive decision. What I would like to do today is tell you three things: what we did; what we found; and what we are recommending to the Department of Justice.

[THE GRAND SETUP]
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This will be an unusual statement in at least a couple ways.
First, I am going to include more detail about our process than I ordinarily would, because I think the American people deserve those details in a case of intense public interest.
[ RATIONALIZING — False Pretext to satisfy our desires or interests. A rather childish ploy used on the American public – because they believe your intelligence level to be that of a pre-teen, and many are deceived by this statement. The statement challenges you to accept whatever they tell you, because why would they go out of their way to please public interest if they were liars.]
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Second, I have not coordinated or reviewed this statement in any way with the Department of Justice or any other part of the government. They do not know what I am about to say.
[ MISPLACED BURDEN OF PROOF — Telling you their statements are not flawed because the FBI has not broken any perceived rules.]
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I want to start by thanking the FBI employees who did remarkable work in this case. Once you have a better sense of how much we have done, you will understand why I am so grateful and proud of their efforts.
[ALSO MISPLACED BURDEN OF PROOF — The FBI’s employees are not to be on trial – Ms. Clinton is.]
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So, first, what we have done:
The investigation began as a referral from the Intelligence Community Inspector General in connection with Secretary Clinton’s use of a personal e-mail server during her time as Secretary of State. The referral focused on whether classified information was transmitted on that personal system.
[A “referral from the Intelligence Community Inspector General” — How interesting in that reading about the Intelligence Community Inspector General – who does not seem to have authority to do this with regards to The Secretary of State –  I perused his/her responsibilities which are very dry administrative crap (salaries, benefits, and such) and do cover several agencies, but not The Secretary of State. With John’s and my medical appointment blowing up lately, I don’t know when I will have the time to finish reading the very lengthy crap about this one position. In the early to middle part of the boring crap, it did list about 16 agencies it does have administrative review over – but, like I said, it made no mention of The Secretary of State.
Gee, I don’t know, common sense tells me that President Obama should have made the formal request, since he hired Hillary Clinton to be Secretary of State.]
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Our investigation looked at whether there is evidence classified information was improperly stored or transmitted on that personal system, in violation of a federal statute making it a felony to mishandle classified information either intentionally or in a grossly negligent way, or a second statute making it a misdemeanor to knowingly remove classified information from appropriate systems or storage facilities.
[“or in a grossly negligent way” – duh – that is the minimum of what was proven, and they said so.]
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Consistent with our counterintelligence responsibilities, we have also investigated to determine whether there is evidence of computer intrusion in connection with the personal e-mail server by any foreign power, or other hostile actors.
I have so far used the singular term, “e-mail server,” in describing the referral that began our investigation. It turns out to have been more complicated than that. Secretary Clinton used several different servers and administrators of those servers during her four years at the State Department, and used numerous mobile devices to view and send e-mail on that personal domain. As new servers and equipment were employed, older servers were taken out of service, stored, and decommissioned in various ways. Piecing all of that back together—to gain as full an understanding as possible of the ways in which personal e-mail was used for government work—has been a painstaking undertaking, requiring thousands of hours of effort.
For example, when one of Secretary Clinton’s original personal servers was decommissioned in 2013, the e-mail software was removed. Doing that didn’t remove the e-mail content, but it was like removing the frame from a huge finished jigsaw puzzle and dumping the pieces on the floor. The effect was that millions of e-mail fragments end up unsorted in the server’s unused—or “slack”—space. We searched through all of it to see what was there, and what parts of the puzzle could be put back together.
FBI investigators have also read all of the approximately 30,000 e-mails provided by Secretary Clinton to the State Department in December 2014. Where an e-mail was assessed as possibly containing classified information, the FBI referred the e-mail to any U.S. government agency that was a likely “owner” of information in the e-mail, so that agency could make a determination as to whether the e-mail contained classified information at the time it was sent or received, or whether there was reason to classify the e-mail now, even if its content was not classified at the time it was sent (that is the process sometimes referred to as “up-classifying”).
From the group of 30,000 e-mails returned to the State Department, 110 e-mails in 52 e-mail chains have been determined by the owning agency to contain classified information at the time they were sent or received. Eight of those chains contained information that was Top Secret at the time they were sent; 36 chains contained Secret information at the time; and eight contained Confidential information, which is the lowest level of classification. Separate from those, about 2,000 additional e-mails were “up-classified” to make them Confidential; the information in those had not been classified at the time the e-mails were sent.
[He could have said all of this in a few sentences. Most of the information is not necessary, or repetitive.
contain classified information at the time they were sent or received. Eight of those chains contained information that was Top Secret at the time they were sent; 36 chains contained Secret information at the time; and eight contained Confidential information, which is the lowest level of classification. Separate from those, about 2,000 additional e-mails were “up-classified” to make them Confidential; the information in those had not been classified at the time the e-mails were sent.
“upclassified” to keep us from reading them. Looks like she is guilty from this statement. If it were you or I, it wouldn’t have even gone this far before we would have seen the inside of a prison cell.]
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The FBI also discovered several thousand work-related e-mails that were not in the group of 30,000 that were returned by Secretary Clinton to State in 2014. We found those additional e-mails in a variety of ways. Some had been deleted over the years and we found traces of them on devices that supported or were connected to the private e-mail domain. Others we found by reviewing the archived government e-mail accounts of people who had been government employees at the same time as Secretary Clinton, including high-ranking officials at other agencies, people with whom a Secretary of State might naturally correspond.
[“several thousand work-related emails that were not in the group of 30,000 that were returned ..” and “Some had been deleted over the years” which is not stated that the first were not turned over by Hillary Clinton, and the second is a direct violation of law”
AND finding emails on other employee’s servers that Hillary did not turn over, especially “including high-ranking officials at other agencies”  MEANS these were also deleted and a direct violation of law.
DO WE DETECT A BIT OF “DOWNPLAYING”? WHICH IS A RHETORICAL DEVICE.]
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This helped us recover work-related e-mails that were not among the 30,000 produced to State. Still others we recovered from the laborious review of the millions of e-mail fragments dumped into the slack space of the server decommissioned in 2013.
[“Still others we recovered from the laborious review of the millions of e-mail fragments dumped into the slack space of the server decommissioned in 2013.” THIS ALONE would have Nixon resigning and impeached!]
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With respect to the thousands of e-mails we found that were not among those produced to State, agencies have concluded that three of those were classified at the time they were sent or received, one at the Secret level and two at the Confidential level. There were no additional Top Secret e-mails found. Finally, none of those we found have since been “up-classified.”
[“have concluded that three of those were classified at the time they were sent or received, one at the Secret level and two at the Confidential level.” 1. WHAT ABOUT THE ONES NOT YET FOUND? 2. My John has the highest classification of security clearance that existed in the 80’s, and his last duty station was in Washington as Non-Commissioned Officer In Charge of the Classified Files Division at Hdqtr. Marine Corp., and he will not even tell me the content of even one Secret. Other than secrets he took an oath to keep, John and I share everything. I cannot imagine anyone at the level of Secretary of State not required to be on level of secret keeping as my husband.]
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I should add here that we found no evidence that any of the additional work-related e-mails were intentionally deleted in an effort to conceal them. Our assessment is that, like many e-mail users, Secretary Clinton periodically deleted e-mails or e-mails were purged from the system when devices were changed. Because she was not using a government account—or even a commercial account like Gmail—there was no archiving at all of her e-mails, so it is not surprising that we discovered e-mails that were not on Secretary Clinton’s system in 2014, when she produced the 30,000 e-mails to the State Department.
[More DOWNPLAYING. AND WEASELER RHETORIC – All of this is designed to protect claim from criticism by weakening it. This is dishonest at best.]
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It could also be that some of the additional work-related e-mails we recovered were among those deleted as “personal” by Secretary Clinton’s lawyers when they reviewed and sorted her e-mails for production in 2014.
[and More Downplaying and Weaseling!]
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The lawyers doing the sorting for Secretary Clinton in 2014 did not individually read the content of all of her e-mails, as we did for those available to us; instead, they relied on header information and used search terms to try to find all work-related e-mails among the reportedly more than 60,000 total e-mails remaining on Secretary Clinton’s personal system in 2014. It is highly likely their search terms missed some work-related e-mails, and that we later found them, for example, in the mailboxes of other officials or in the slack space of a server.
[and More Downplaying and Weaseling! When will this stop?]
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It is also likely that there are other work-related e-mails that they did not produce to State and that we did not find elsewhere, and that are now gone because they deleted all e-mails they did not return to State, and the lawyers cleaned their devices in such a way as to preclude complete forensic recovery.
[So, ‘we deleted all that had not been turned over to – er – um – well, make sure you could see that there are no more in existence for us to review.’ And, if one of us was in cahoots with whomever – and deleted some that should have been turned over that would have further proven her guilt -well, hahahahaha no one will ever know!!
At this point, it is important to point out all through this there is a certain APPEAL TO IGNORANCE: Trying to convince you that there is a lack of evidence against a claim, (even though they have already told you that there is evidence), hoping that you will believe the claim doesn’t get any positive points. And that is exactly what this person is trying to do in these statements upon similar statements.]
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We have conducted interviews and done technical examination to attempt to understand how that sorting was done by her attorneys. Although we do not have complete visibility because we are not able to fully reconstruct the electronic record of that sorting, we believe our investigation has been sufficient to give us reasonable confidence there was no intentional misconduct in connection with that sorting effort.
[The RHETORIC is simply trying to persuade you to an unwarranted conclusion, rather than give you logical proof.
Also, “intentional” or not – when you and I break a law – “ignorance of the law is no excuse”, and we are prosecuted!
ALSO, SUCH AN IGNORAMUS WHO BROKE THE LAW WANTS US TO ELECT HER PRESIDENT? EITHER SHE IS AN IGNORAMUS – THEREFORE SHE IS NOT QUALIFIED TO BE PRESIDENT;
OR –
SHE DID IT DELIBERATELY, AND IS A LIAR AND A CHEAT – THEREFORE SHE IS NOT QUALIFIED TO BE PRESIDENT!]
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And, of course, in addition to our technical work, we interviewed many people, from those involved in setting up and maintaining the various iterations of Secretary Clinton’s personal server, to staff members with whom she corresponded on e-mail, to those involved in the e-mail production to State, and finally, Secretary Clinton herself.
[MORE APPEAL TO IGNORANCE: Meaningless to John Public and Jane Public, since we do not get to know about any of it.]
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Last, we have done extensive work to understand what indications there might be of compromise by hostile actors in connection with the personal e-mail operation.
[More blah, blah, blah to you the Citizen who deserve to know the details.]
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That’s what we have done. Now let me tell you what we found:
Although we did not find clear evidence that Secretary Clinton or her colleagues intended to violate laws governing the handling of classified information, there is evidence that they were extremely careless in their handling of very sensitive, highly classified information.
[Wow – pick your rhetorical device – this could be a GOUP THINK FALLACY, OR RATIONALIZING, OR WISHFUL THINKING, OR COMMON PRACTICE . . . but, either way you slice it – YOU – AMERICA – ARE BEING DELIBERATELY DECEIVED!)
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For example, seven e-mail chains concern matters that were classified at the Top Secret/Special Access Program level when they were sent and received. These chains involved Secretary Clinton both sending e-mails about those matters and receiving e-mails from others about the same matters. There is evidence to support a conclusion that any reasonable person in Secretary Clinton’s position, or in the position of those government employees with whom she was corresponding about these matters, should have known that an unclassified system was no place for that conversation. In addition to this highly sensitive information, we also found information that was properly classified as Secret by the U.S. Intelligence Community at the time it was discussed on e-mail (that is, excluding the later “up-classified” e-mails).
[This is actually an argument invoking PITY!! Of course she was smart enough as Secretary of State, and being a lawyer to know that what she did was flamboyantly ILLEGAL!!!!]
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None of these e-mails should have been on any kind of unclassified system, but their presence is especially concerning because all of these e-mails were housed on unclassified personal servers not even supported by full-time security staff, like those found at Departments and Agencies of the U.S. Government—or even with a commercial service like Gmail.
[SO, SHE IS GUILTY!! (but we will soon ignore that fact.)]
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Separately, it is important to say something about the marking of classified information. Only a very small number of the e-mails containing classified information bore markings indicating the presence of classified information. But even if information is not marked “classified” in an e-mail, participants who know or should know that the subject matter is classified are still obligated to protect it.
[So, we are back to the whole thing – either she is an ignoramus and should never hold public office, or she is a deliberate lying, cheat and should never hold public office.]
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While not the focus of our investigation, we also developed evidence that the security culture of the State Department in general, and with respect to use of unclassified e-mail systems in particular, was generally lacking in the kind of care for classified information found elsewhere in the government.
[ARGUMENT OF COMMON PRACTICE – why everyone is committing the same crime, so what she knows she deliberately did just isn’t thaaaat baaaaad!]
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With respect to potential computer intrusion by hostile actors, we did not find direct evidence that Secretary Clinton’s personal e-mail domain, in its various configurations since 2009, was successfully hacked. But, given the nature of the system and of the actors potentially involved, we assess that we would be unlikely to see such direct evidence. We do assess that hostile actors gained access to the private commercial e-mail accounts of people with whom Secretary Clinton was in regular contact from her personal account. We also assess that Secretary Clinton’s use of a personal e-mail domain was both known by a large number of people and readily apparent. She also used her personal e-mail extensively while outside the United States, including sending and receiving work-related e-mails in the territory of sophisticated adversaries. Given that combination of factors, we assess it is possible that hostile actors gained access to Secretary Clinton’s personal e-mail account.
[ Whoa!!! This paragraph needs to be dissected . . .

1.       With respect to potential computer intrusion by hostile actors, we did not find direct evidence that Secretary Clinton’s personal e-mail domain, in its various configurations since 2009, was successfully hacked.
THEY ARE TELLING YOU THAT THEY DIDN’T FIND ANY DIRECT EVIDENCE OF EVIL HACKERS . . . BUT!!!!
2. But, given the nature of the system and of the actors potentially involved, we assess that we would be unlikely to see such direct evidence.
THEY ADMIT THEY PROBABLY COULDN’T FIND ANY DIRECT EVIDENCE EVEN IF IT WERE THERE! MAKING #1 STATEMENT USELESS. #1 & #2 SHOULD HAVE BEEN DELETED FROM THIS STATEMENT, BUT THEY USED IT AGAINST YOU AS A PERFECTIONIST FALLACY.

3. We do assess that hostile actors gained access to the private commercial e-mail accounts of people with whom Secretary Clinton was in regular contact from her personal account.
THEY ADMIT THAT HER EMAIL ACCOUNT WAS HACKED BY WAY OF HER EMAIL ACTIVITY WITH OTHERS THAT WERE KNOWN TO BE HACKED. AND THEY ARE HOPING YOU WON’T NOTICE THIS SENTENCE AFTER THE LAST TWO SENTENCES THAT ARE USELESS SENTENCES BECAUSE THEY CANCEL EACH OTHER OUT.

4. We also assess that Secretary Clinton’s use of a personal e-mail domain was both known by a large number of people and readily apparent.
[GROUP THINK FALLACY – Identifying with a group takes the place of reason and deliberation on an issue.]

5. She also used her personal e-mail extensively while outside the United States, including sending and receiving work-related e-mails in the territory of sophisticated adversaries.
[er – um – shouldn’t this make her guilty of something really, really bad????]

6. Given that combination of factors, we assess it is possible that hostile actors gained access to Secretary Clinton’s personal e-mail account.
[So, why didn’t they use the word treason?]
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So that’s what we found. Finally, with respect to our recommendation to the Department of Justice:
In our system, the prosecutors make the decisions about whether charges are appropriate based on evidence the FBI has helped collect. Although we don’t normally make public our recommendations to the prosecutors, we frequently make recommendations and engage in productive conversations with prosecutors about what resolution may be appropriate, given the evidence. In this case, given the importance of the matter, I think unusual transparency is in order.
[“In this case, given the importance of the matter, I think unusual transparency is in order.” If only it were true!]
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Although there is evidence of potential violations of the statutes regarding the handling of classified information, our judgment is that no reasonable prosecutor would bring such a case. Prosecutors necessarily weigh a number of factors before bringing charges. There are obvious considerations, like the strength of the evidence, especially regarding intent. Responsible decisions also consider the context of a person’s actions, and how similar situations have been handled in the past.
[OMGoodness!!!! Really????? She knew what she was doing was wrong.  Go back a page or two and this speech says she knew what she was doing, and she knew it was wrong. To say she did not is to say she is a blithering idiot. AND the bad guys hacked her through those she emailed.
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In looking back at our investigations into mishandling or removal of classified information, we cannot find a case that would support bringing criminal charges on these facts. All the cases prosecuted involved some combination of: clearly intentional and willful mishandling of classified information; or vast quantities of materials exposed in such a way as to support an inference of intentional misconduct; or indications of disloyalty to the United States; or efforts to obstruct justice. We do not see those things here.
[Perhaps the person making this statement is the blithering idiot – for how – after identifying all of Hillary’s guilt earlier in this speech – how can he say “we do not see those things here?”]
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To be clear, this is not to suggest that in similar circumstances, a person who engaged in this activity would face no consequences. To the contrary, those individuals are often subject to security or administrative sanctions. But that is not what we are deciding now.
[So, this is clearly the SUBJECTIVISM FALLACY: An assumption that is true for one person, but not for another. So true for Hillary, but not for you and I – to be clear!!!]
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As a result, although the Department of Justice makes final decisions on matters like this, we are expressing to Justice our view that no charges are appropriate in this case.
[PANTS ON FIRE!!! This man has deliberately deceived the American people, and is therefore an un-American citizen who should not be accepted by honest society. Period. It is about time for the good American people to shun snake oil salesmen in lawyer’s suits, who line their own pockets with riches paid to them for their lies and crimes against the American people.]
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I know there will be intense public debate in the wake of this recommendation, as there was throughout this investigation. What I can assure the American people is that this investigation was done competently, honestly, and independently. No outside influence of any kind was brought to bear.
[A BALD FACE LIE; AND IF YOU DON’T SEE IT, THEN YOU AREN’T BEING HONEST WITH YOURSELF, OR YOU ARE CONFUSED.]
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I know there were many opinions expressed by people who were not part of the investigation—including people in government—but none of that mattered to us. Opinions are irrelevant, and they were all uninformed by insight into our investigation, because we did the investigation the right way. Only facts matter, and the FBI found them here in an entirely apolitical and professional way. I couldn’t be prouder to be part of this organization.
[Disgusting P O S!
I know a good citizen, a Police Officer, a Detective, who would call this person who delivered this speech a P O S – I added the disgusting for good measure. ]

Copyright © 2016 by Juanita Holloway-Walters, All Rights Reserved

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DID OUR TROOPS WHO FOUGHT FOR OUR FREEDOMS DIE IN VAIN?

The reaction to our Christian Religion being changed by state sponsored religious dictates is shocking. Where is the outrage at our government dictating Christian and Jewish religious precepts? Did our troops for over 230 years fight for our freedom? – and often suffered injury – or the greatest price for freedom – paid with their lives – die in vain? This is an add-on for thought to my earlier post:
https://texasladyjuanita.com/2015/06/26/from-the-heart-supreme-court-decision-is-wrong/

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FROM THE HEART: SUPREME COURT DECISION IS WRONG

Because marriage is a very integral part of Jewish and Christian Biblical religion, and Jesus defined marriage as one man and one woman – our Federal government, and some States are overriding our religions of free choice and forcing state sponsored religious laws on Americans. This is anti-Constitutional. We broke with Great Britain in part due to Englands forced state religion. Not only in forcing churches and synagogues to perform heretical marriage services, but in forcing Jews and Christians to commit heretical acts in their daily work – the necessary activity defined by our Biblical teachings that we must do honest work if able. We are required by the very nature of our religious faiths to be Jewish and Christian in all aspects of our lives.

Further, sacred marriage in my Christian religion requires I understand Jewish marriage to understand Christ’s relationship with me in the 69 weeks of the Christian Church Age and Salvation. Christ then returns His attention primarily on His Jewish people, and returns to save the remnant at His return to begin the millennium.

Many like me have pointed out that the 90 % of Christians who have not read / studied their Bibles would cause suffering of all Christians in America. This ruling by the Supreme Court (5 to 4 with dissenting judges writing scathing rebuttals of how the Supreme Court has acted outside of its legal bounds), would have never happened in my parents or grandparents generation (mine are crying out in shame from their graves).

“Matthew 19:4-6 KJV  And he answered and said unto them, Have ye not read, that he which made them at the beginning made them male and female, And said, For this cause shall a man leave father and mother, and shall cleave to his wife: and they twain shall be one flesh?Wherefore they are no more twain, but one flesh. What therefore God hath joined together, let not man put asunder.”

Copyright © 2015 by Juanita Holloway-Walters, All Rights Reserved

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FOR MY SMOKING FRIENDS, AND THOSE THAT DO NOT SMOKE AND MAY BE INTERESTED IN MY STORY

My 3 regular specialists in the large medical group I am enrolled in are awesome. I had a problem with 3 other specialists brought in for consultation.

– One doctor last year saying, “You know soon no doctor will be allowed to treat you if you do not stop smoking.” He is a podiatrist who did not help me with an ingrown toenail.
– Another surgeon who was the 2nd surgeon on a team of 2 had “no problem” with my smoking before the surgery, and it was discussed. He also had no problem taking the money my 2 insurances paid – but he belittled, and bullied me for 3 years after the surgery.
– And another specialist recently gave me a fifteen minute tirade about how he would not do surgery on me because I smoke (even though my many surgeries have been a success in spite of what he thinks about smoking). He refused to tell me the results of my Upright Open MRI until I quit smoking. He insinuated I needed surgery, but would not do it on me until I quit smoking. He was unbelievably arrogant, belittling, and harassing in his demeanor – and got just short of completely in my face at the end of the consultation.

So I wrote a letter briefly praising my 3 regular specialists, and then giving a blow by blow account of 3 consultations over 3 years that had specialists belittling me, harassing me, and bullying me – and two did not do the consults for which they were paid to do.

I wrote a letter to the head Administrator of the large medical group, and in that letter among other things regarding my care I included the following about my smoking – this is an excerpt from the middle of the very long expose/letter:

…     I looked up the government’s study and results regarding cigarette smoking. I was interested in the section regarding addiction – which is a very lengthy read. It talks about how many just cannot quit. Through many attempts in the late 80’s and early 90’s to quit smoking, without good result, I discovered each time that I became horribly ill. The longest attempt was 3 weeks, and I was horribly ill for a little over 3 weeks. The discovery that I could not be hypnotized was the most interesting aspect of these really awful attempts to quit. Other aids for cessation that I used at different times: pills, patches, and gum. I had adverse effects from the pills; and I cheated regularly on the patches, and on the gum. It is important to note the following, which the government study on this cigarette / nicotine addiction supports:

  • I am truly addicted to cigarettes / nicotine, and it is more difficult for women to quit.
  • My parents were chain smokers – and if you buy into second hand smoke – this would explain that my addiction is a 62 year / entire life addiction – and possibly why I tolerate it so well. It also explains why I started smoking soon after leaving my childhood home for married life. At that time the majority of my friends, co-workers, and family were (some still are) cigarette smokers. I believe that I am the person who simply cannot quit an entire life addiction.
  • I have been living with pain for over 35 years, and cigarettes are a large part of my many years success of controlling pain – a large part of my pain management in the form of instant comfort – even allowing me to work with pain over twenty years – almost always having business owners whom I worked with also smoked, and I was allowed to smoke in my office. My quality of life has been amazing because of my faith, my wonderful 20 year marriage, my xxxxxxxx doctors, and my ability to find means of comfort / pain control: cigarettes, reading, long hot soaks in a tub, etc. [The government report supports this thesis that cigarettes are an effective tool against pain, and therefore quitting is almost impossible. Weighing the good against the bad is impossible for someone who is not the patient.]
  • Between my husband’s awesome fight against his stage 4 Prostate Cancer, and my own struggle with numerous [4] degenerative diseases, I can see little benefit of creating any misery in my life via attempts to stop a 62 year addiction. I believe we must choose our battles wisely, and pick the ones we have a good chance of success. [The government report supports that under long term stress, cigarette smoking is a stress relieving tool.]

It is my opinion that every person is unique, and treatment plans are also unique to each person. I am defined by much more than my diseases. I do not believe that Dr. xxxxxx was interested in knowing who I am or why smoking cessation is not a good idea for me. None of us live forever. When my Creator takes me home to be with Him will be an occasion for joy. I depend on my physicians to help me live the best quality of life I can live with my [4] degenerative diseases, and my human frailties / faults. We all know there are no cures for any of the degenerative diseases I have.

I do take issue with the propaganda that makes people believe I am a burden on society. I am the good citizen that worked hard for 45 years, and purchased medical insurance for myself and my family. The high rates I paid were to help those less fortunate than myself who did not have insurance. After a little research, I have come to the conclusion that older folks who pass on due to medical diseases, all use much more medical assistance before they pass on – not just the ones that smoke.  …

AND ALMOST AT the end of my long letter I asked these questions:

  • …     Is it XXXXXXXXXXXXXX policy that patients that smoke will not be provided medical services by individual doctors, specialties, or in general?
  • Where individual doctors have a particular prejudice against smokers is it XXXXXXXXXXXX policy to allow these doctors to refuse treatment to patients.  If it is, is XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX keeping records of these physicians so that patients that choose to smoke are not referred to them for treatment?
  • Where a patient that chooses to smoke is referred to one of the physicians with significant prejudice regarding smoking does XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX agree that the extent of treatment during these appointments should be to lecture the patient rather than to discuss the medical issue that required the referral, or refer the patient to another doctor in the same specialty that is not so negatively disposed toward patients that choose to smoke? …

THEIR REPLY to my long letter (I saw no reason to share the details of my entire letter in minutia with you – but it was six typed pages in addition to what I have shared with you):

“Ms. Walters – I’m sorry that your visits with XXXX, XXXX and XXXXX were not satisfactory. I have also copied our Medical Director for clinical review.  You should receive a written response from the Medical Director after completion of his review.  Thank you.”

THAT WAS APRIL 3, 2015 and I have not received a response yet.
I will share their response with you when I receive it if possible / plausible.

I see someone posted something in FB about the “death panels” not happening.
It is called Whole Lives Medicine, and if you read Obamacare you will find it. I did spend a couple of paragraphs of my letter saying that Americans do not believe that Americans will allow Whole Lives Medicine to be implemented – especially by Administrators instead of physicians. The first doctor in my letter is basically hoping this will happen so he can tell me he will not treat me. Time will tell if such inhumane acts will be fulfilled as to how it is described in Obamacare.
THIS IS IMPORTANT TO ALL OF US. If they believe they will turn me away because I smoke – soon they will turn you away because you EAT TOO MUCH, or because you race cars / sky dive / play dangerous sports / etc., or because you refuse DNA screening to find out if you have the genes that tell them you will probably have this disease or that disease, NEED I GO ON? Use your imagination. The very young and the old will no longer receive many, many, many procedures, medications, and surgeries if it is implemented. They want to pick and choose who gets the precious medical care available.
These same people who are screaming about equal rights for certain peoples regarding medical care (and other minority choices), are the same ones who want to say medical care will not be wasted on the young, the old, the ones who do not eat and drink as they are told, the ones that DO NOT THINK the way they are told to think, etc. etc. etc. They do not believe in God; they think they are god.

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PART TWO – RUNNING IN CIRCLES – ANSWERS

I KNOW!!! What I wrote in Part One was personal, and shocking for that reason. Yes, but, this issue needs exploring to put it in a healthy perspective. It may be an almost exclusive WHITE MIDDLE CLASS issue – I don’t know for sure, and I certainly do not mean to leave anyone out of this group of Boomers due to my ignorance. First, for clarity: What you may, or may not, have perceived from Part One of my commentary is that I am very proud of my son, his soul-mate wife, and my grandchildren. How could he be my son and not be independent, immediately and passionately (inside his domain / home) family oriented, and successful at whatever he chooses to endeavor. When I do see him, he is very forthcoming with apology for his busy life, and never forgets to tell me he loves me. On many occasions over the years he has sincerely rewarded me with praise. I have a file full of Birthday, Mother’s Day, and Christmas Cards that say wonderful things – not just about his opinion of me – but also, about he and I. Over the last 5 years many people have contacted me privately to tell me their woes that almost mirror mine identically regarding our mostly absent Generation X children (Gen X). I believe I know of several reasons that work in conjunction with each other to have left us with the outcomes we are experiencing. We are a significant number of the Baby Boom Generation (Boomers) who are experiencing the loss of immediate and close relationship with our Gen X children.

1)   An easy one: Boomer’s Parents, and our schools were strict. When Boomers were children, we – who mostly spoke when we were spoken to – made up our minds that we would discipline our children in kinder ways, and listen to what our children had to say. OH boy!!! Speaking for me, I was an idiot. Before the last 20 years with John, I was for all practical purposes a single parent (even when previously married to another child to raise). What my children knew about manipulating me with guilt, even when they were five years old, would have shocked me if I had understood it at that time.

These Gen X children who voiced their opinions on everything under the sun have decided that the candy-xxx discipline we doled out was excessive. Right. Taking my son’s phone out of his bedroom until he brought his grades up, each and every time, caused my son to opine of how truly cruel I was. Well, always, within a week he would bring me notes from all teachers who would relay to me that his work was all turned in and his grade back up to an A or a B – depending on the subject. Discipline works.

One of the chief reasons these Gen Xers avoid us is their embarrassment when their children behave like undisciplined savages. Two minute time outs do zero to discipline children. When one of his children behaves in such manner around John and me, I can see the pure frustration and embarrassment in my son’s eyes and his body language. He knows I can read his signs, and that just compounds the whirlwind of feelings in the room. I can totally understand that his life is easier if the evidence of failed modern acceptable discipline results are not seen by me. When I explain how my young son was the happiest when his boundaries and known consequences were enforced, I also seem to lose any possible bond with my daughter-in-love.

2)   Gen X children are too busy to include their parents in their lives. Fair enough. But, we must ask why do they schedule themselves and their children 24/7/365 days a year? I don’t have a lot of answers here, but do know that their lives are so full of scheduled events, I worry that they have enough time with each other – much less time with John and I.

I remember watching my son being crushed under homework every night and most of his weekends when I made the decision to pull him out of the “gifted and talented” curriculum at school. I believe children need to be children, and that means they should let their imaginations run wild playing outside with other children. My children never met strangers, so they were really good at socializing. If you want to hear laughter in and around your home, you must let your children play outside until they smell like wet puppies.

It seems like our grandchildren’s playmates and best friends are their parents who take them to play dates, and birthday parties’ non-stop all year. On top of that they are taken to dance lessons, acrobatic lessons, piano lessons, and other kinds of lessons. When do these kids get to be in frequent free play outside developing not only social skills, but practical thinking on your feet skills?

3} Below are descriptions, an expert has given to the Boomers, and Gen X which most of our children were born into. I think it gives us some insight into the phenomenon of our children loving us from a distance.
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“BOOMERS Born 1946 – 1964

An amalgam of two distinct sub-sets:  the save-the-world revolutionaries of the ‘60s, followed by the self-improvement party’ers of the late ‘70s and early ‘80s.  Career-driven.  The Golden Generation in the American workplace.  Assertive.  Leaders.  Ethical.  Demanding.  Struggled with marriage and parenting.  America will now be a Boomer-led nation into the 2030’s.  This generation will never fully retire, and this is about to change America’s workplace, marketplace, and lifestyle profoundly.

GEN-X Born 1965 – 1981 – [My children were born 1973, and 1979.]

The latch-key kids grew up street-smart but isolated, often with divorced or time-starved dual-career parents.  Entrepreneurial.  Independent.  Creative.  Career “free agents”.  Feel disempowered and disengaged.  Eager to make marriage work and “be there” for their children.  Starting to chalk up some victories in life.  X’ers are rising.  They’ll lead America in the 2030’s and 2040’s.  They will give our nation excellent “idea leadership” but will need training to become good “people leaders”.

“FIRST-WAVE MILLENNIALS Born:  1982 – 1996 (and still coming!)” You can go find this group if you are interested. They are our grandchildren, and some late Boomer children – but, not the Boomer children we are thinking about in this commentary.

© 2009 The Generational Imperative, Inc. All rights reserved.

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The first thing I noticed is that the “expert” wrote something negative about the Gen X childhood because of their parents, and nothing about Boomer parents. I could write a book on how dysfunctional most Boomer homes were. If they were not actually divorcing, they were constantly threatening to. What sticks out most for me, is that because Boomer parents experienced the Depression as children, and WWII in their teen and young adult lives, they often lived through us – and even forcing us to be whom they wished they could have been as teens and young adults. It is hard to measure up to someone else’s dream. But, I digress . . . we are trying to understand why so many Gen X children have little time for their Boomer parents.

I believe that many Gen Xers hold some kind of a dual loving admiration and jealousy of who we Boomers were, and the world we lived in . . . let us look again at pieces of the Boomer description:

“Career-driven”

We Boomers were “fast trackers” – “movers and shakers” – well read – over educated – self-educated – an amazing society of engaged and successful people. We lived the American dream. White and Blue collar workers came together to achieve the most amazing advances in every industry on the planet. We enjoyed the last decades of true Capitalism, which made the Middle Class grow by leaps and bounds. If this was not Gen X parents, they felt like they were cheated. If it was their parents, they also felt cheated because we worked 55 hour work weeks to get ahead. At the time, we were determined to give our kids any advantage possible to insure their futures were as bright, or brighter than ours.

Somehow, many Gen Xers did not appreciate the link between the Middle Class lifestyle they enjoyed, and how hard we Boomers worked. It also seems probable that when Gen Xers size up todays often negative atmosphere for similar levels of endeavor, they have given up without showing true American Culture at its best, by peacefully fighting back to make the ultimate checks and balances of our government work, and answerable to We The People.

Many Boomers realized that the link between home, food, clothes, schools, entertainment, and the massive man/hours we worked to achieve the best we were capable of providing, was not translating to the values our children should have received by the process. Like many, determined to make them understand, I sent my Gen X teenagers out into the world to earn money after school, and summers.

I remember the first week my teen son worked on a concrete crew; a job I had attained for him. He railed against me for two weeks; claiming I was trying to kill him via jackhammer death in the crouched position to make holes in concrete for rebar. At the end of his second week, he received his first paycheck – and Katie Bar the Door!!!!!! This is undoubtedly the planted seed of why he works so hard and owns his own business. (I really need a smiley face here!) At the end of that summer he wanted to keep working and earning money, and screw school. Not a chance my genius son would be allowed to drop out!

My son received that job because of my connections. Jobs for teenagers in America was a part of our heritage. Due to open borders, the summer and after school jobs that should have been there for our teenaged Gen Xers, to build their young character on, went to adult illegal aliens. When they graduated and entered the workforce, not only did many have no experience to put on their resumes, but the national economic failures left few jobs for them to have. Even those who attained degrees were working for a fraction of what they dreamed, for so long, they would be earning.

Gen Xers by the thousands compared their lives to their parents, and it became easier to disconnect from us than to feel they had failed to keep their place among the Middle Class they were raised in.

Here is where Boomers can visualize good reason for resentment: The day of honorable Capitalism is gone. What our Gen Xers are experiencing is a government hostile to the small and medium business. Endless laws & regulations steal the fruits of their labor. Laws like Obamacare are designed to put a burden on the small and medium business that it cannot bear. What our Gen Xers are dealing with is CRONY Capitalism, whereby large international corporations and our own out of control government are in cahoots to destroy the Middle Class.

Giving away our Gen Xers industries, jobs, and tax dollars to illegal immigrants, and our enemies in foreign countries has done nothing to bring up the standards of any other country, and sold out our American Culture and Heritage. We Boomers understand that the Gen Xers blame us. What the Gen Xers do not understand is that until the last two decades, the deceptions of our government, the undermining of our schools, and the trashing of our economy was done covertly. The last two decades are on both the Boomer and the Gen Xers for allowing it to happen. Sadly, our Gen X children do not have the necessary tools to do a peaceful economic and government re-set . . . they scarcely understand what our American heritage / culture is, therefore they blame their Boomer parents for their “bad luck.”
4)  Major differences in the Boomers and our Gen X children which has caused division over time:

–     Fear. Boomers experienced some levels of fear in their young lives regarding assassinations of leaders, Cuban Missile Crisis, the Cold War, and Vietnam. This pales in comparison to a long list of major events our Gen X children have experienced in their young lives moving forward to the present day: being desensitized by the sex and violence on the big and little screen, 9/11, crazy dictators obtaining Nukes, the roller coaster economy, EMP threats, trying to determine why there is government insistence on a debunked Global Warming – and all the business smothering regulations created because of it, terrorist threats including biological warfare, never ending wars and rumors of wars, explosive economy with constant threats of a dollar collapse.

–     Faith. Boomers were raised in an atmosphere of Christian principles and values, and a strong family unit. Even if Boomers were not actively attending church, or even Christian, society’s principles and values was the choice of America. 93% of Americans were Christian when I graduated high school in 1970. Of course there were criminals, because we are flawed humans. Most Christians in the 60’s considered themselves “born again,” gospel believing, Christians who were positively changed on the day they accepted the Lord into their lives.

The Christianity of today must largely be the apostate kind with weak principles and values, because we have millions of secularists telling us that evil or bad is just as valid for living as those principles and values that I have carried with me from my childhood forward. Today 78% of Americans are “Christians.” They do not like the crime levels, and ignored American Christian principles and values any more than I do, but they are willing to say your god and my God are the same god, and “whatever” when you try to tie them down on living in a Christian America. Just one quick example, in a sea of examples we could live by . . . we would have to throw out 95% of our television and movie content to bring our lives in line with Christian principles and values.

Due to my upbringing, Boomers expected to be instrumental in our children having a better life than we did. Due to my son’s upbringing, he expects to be instrumental in his children having a better life.
In the long run, and looking at the rule, and not the exception, our expectations will not be met, and more so for my dear grandchildren.

I do not have all of the answers as to why so many of our Gen Xers have distanced themselves from parents they love and respect. The several reasons above are part of the phenomenon. I have read that America has twice turned around inside of six months back to the Lord, and Christian principles and values. Is it possible for this to happen when so many are just making it through each day the best they can, and isolating those from their lives that may be able to help them more spiritually than the apostate church / secular church that is sweeping up our Gen Xers – if they even bother with church at all.

Many, many Boomers have abandoned our churches, recognizing them for the changed entities they are in the process of becoming. THE CHURCH IS THE BODY OF CHRIST. There should never have been division, upon division, upon division of The Christian Church. Along with these divisions – departing from our foundational Christian teachings for man-made denominational religions – departing from the worship in Jewish homes in the early church for man-made cathedrals and statues with so much money it could have fed the world over and over for decades.

My Mother’s Day card from my son, “Mom, I’ve been thinking of all the great memories from being your son! Thank you for all the fun and love I experienced through my life because of you!!” This doesn’t sound like a Gen X son who neglects his relationship with his mother. It is like my Gen Xer is away at some insane camp that Boomers are not allowed into. They know what we would say and do. The “wisdom of grandparents” is not something these Gen Xers are willing to allow into their lives, and their children’s lives. It would not be convenient to the image they have of themselves, when we are near and dear.

As I stated in Part One, I am always open to any ideas you have for solving this heart wrenching problem. How do we bring our Gen Xers back into our lives, and the whole country back to the Lord? It is true that all of the above is almost mind numbing when you consider it all together, but each issue needs to be reconciled before there is unity in our families. There is so much division in our land that is described as political, racial, ethical, etc. etc. etc. I know that our willingness to live with these political issues, without calling the leaders out for lying about every division they have caused, has left the nation in sad repair. Perhaps if we could solve the divisions between generations first, we could then tackle the rest of it together.

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RUNNING IN CIRCLES – NEED YOUR ADVICE

You know I try to write only when I have something to say, and I am still here. When I worked, I worked circles around others, while training them to take my place. Today, the effects of 35 years of illness (and over 20 of those hiding it), and effects of necessary medications, I am more likely running in circles. I love to cook, and it has not escaped me that activity lasts 2 to 3 hours – and there is closure as we eat the things I cook. That equals feeling successful day to day. When I clean out a chest of drawers or a closet, it is such a successful high, I get John to take me out to celebrate. Me getting gussied up to even a fraction of younger glory is cause to have an adult beverage. (That is limited to only one drink a few times a year due to medications.)

What I am doing – to do a NEW set of commentaries  . . .

Writing some commentaries about sin – and I started them yesterday  by writing the introduction. . .

Needed scripture from Matthew, found it, but . . .

Remembered it is one of the books I must study in detail – so far about 8 hrs on Chapter One, and about 2 hrs. on Chapter Two . . .

Had an epiphany about a book need to co – write with John and re – outlined 14 Chapters.

Remembered my Daughter in love gave me a 1938 copy of Crime and Punishment and I still want to read it and I started today, appropriate to the commentaries . . .

AND Here is where I need your wisdom:

There is the HUGE parent / adult child issue with my 36 year old STILL taking up valuable brain time! He apparently doesnt understand respect, in the way I do . . . and the most important difference between talk and action – and I get from him that in some unexplained way it is my fault? Not a chance . . . Action woman here that raised him. Love him. My pendulum was in the other extreme, I could never tell my Mamma no. I need to figure this out so I can let the issue go. Love my kids madly! It would be fair to say that I was the primary working provider in their young lives . . . And also enjoyed their company and being fun Mommy . . . when I wasn’t being Strict Mommy bearer of Consequences!

So here is the issue, and any wise words you could share with me would be appreciated. Oh, not a chance he reads my blog posts, and they are not on FB. He listens to books while driving from business clients to the office to picking up kids to home to wherever . . . Not a reader like me – he does also have his fathers genes.

Issue: If I dont call him, I wouldn’t hear from him but MAYBE 6 times a year. His words: Mom, anyone who talks to me, or sees me, knows they have to call and make an appointment in my life – even my clients know this. I am too busy to remember to call you or stop in to see you. I should clarify that he and his wife own their own business.

When John and I lived 30 minutes away, the excuse was that we just lived too far away. We moved – 8 minutes door to door. He tells me that as he and my grand daughters pass by where we live every day, the girls wave and say, Hi Grandmama in my general direction.

Over the years , I did call him, for him to tell me he had another call, and he would call me back – which he rarely did. Case in point. Even the day at the VA when we learned about my husbands stage 4 cancer, and I excused myself as John was winding up with the doctor – I ran outside crying and called my son, needing his support, and he said he would call me back, but did not. I understand business is important . . . But?

So, recently he expands the ‘you call me’ theory of conduct. Even his martial arts class is a scheduled event 2 nights a week . . . As well as “boys night out ” for him, and “baby sit his own children”  night for his wife to get out. There is church on Wednesdays, and Sundays where he drives the bus to pick up and drop off the old people, and there is their young couples class and church . . . And the various ways in which his wife’ s family depends on him – good example is all those females telling him he will be the one to spend nights in the hospital with his father- in – law because he is so hard to handle. That is a true statement. Saturdays are for all the birthday parties his children attend, and in the evenings the adults socializing with their friends.

I totally get that he is supposed to leave his parents, and cleave unto his wife . . . But I didnt find the part in scripture where you only talk to and see your mother 4 times a year. (Christmas, each grand-girl’s birthday, and the day before Mothers Day.) I have flat out told him that I need his support in my life. He replied that he needed me in his life too. Right . . .

I am so ready to stop feeling hurt over this. About once a day my thoughts go to my son, and in prayer for a happy solution. I was the one who called and planned get togethers for many years. John and I are battling his cancer, my escalated degenerative diseases, and some awful side affects of taking meds long term now. I thought my son would step up and be a uniting force in all this. I did try to say, okay, we will eat dinner, all of us, every Friday, since the rest of the week is filled already with other people and places. It happened once, and I was told we would do it on a Friday to Friday basis because their boys and girls nights out were much needed and on Fridays.

Either the answer to my prayers are no, or The Lord is telling me to be even more patient. OR?

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FROM THE HEART – WHAT WE BELIEVE . . .

If I hear one more Christian leader say that all religions worship the same God,
my head may explode.
I tell you with profound confidence that all humanity does not worship my Christian
/ Jewish God – our Creator.
Contradictions in the many religions are not compatible,
and cannot be ignored.
One huge example is how Christians are taught to treat women
VS. how other religions are taught to treat women.
If you do not openly denounce another religion preaching the abuse of women,
you will be held accountable on your day of judgement as if you also abused women.
My Bible tells me, as a Christian, to not be deceived;
for it is our individual responsibility to not be deceived.
When you are held responsible for how you chose to live your life . . .
you will not be able to blame any other person for your choices and beliefs.

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FROM THE HEART – COKER / CARDIN – TELL YOUR SENATORS NO TODAY – BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE

The Corker/Cardin legislation must not be supported/ passed – period.
WE HAVE A CONSTITUTION THAT PROVIDES FOR TREATIES –
THE SENATE MUST APPROVE WITH 2/3 MAJORITY VOTE.
THEREFORE, Any legislation passed will weaken the Constitution.
I think Ted Cruz is my man for President,
but !!!
do not support this legislation TO ADD AN AMENDMENT TO THE COKER/CARDIN BILL in any form.
“We The People” in Texas need for Ted Cruz to tell us why we do not enforce our existing law / Constitution.
YOU NEED to ask your Senators in other states, the same question.
Links Below TO:
1.  Article 2, Section 2 of Constitution regarding treaties,
2.  AND to a legal description of this existing Constitutional Law, of which the following is an excerpt:
Treaty-Making Process
Treaties are initiated at the executive level of government usually by the President or the Secretary of State. A representative for the United States is sent to negotiate the terms of the treaty with the representatives of other countries. When the parties agree on the terms, the representative submits the terms to the Secretary of State for approval. If the terms are accepted by the Secretary of State, then the representative will sign the treaty. The Secretary of State submits the treaty to the President for transmittal to the Senate.
Once the President receives the treaty, it is submitted to the Senate for approval. In the Senate, it is referred to the Senate Foreign Relations Committee for consideration. The committee considers the terms of the treaty and, upon approval, submits the treaty to the entire Senate for consideration. The Senate must approve the treaty with a 2/3 majority vote. The President ratifies the treaty and proclaims its entry into force.”
THE LINKS MENTIONED ABOVE:
http://www.archives.gov/exhibits/charters/constitution_transcript.html
https://www.law.asu.edu/library/RossBlakleyLawLibrary/ResearchNow/ResearchGuides/TreatiesandInternationalAgreements.aspx

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FROM MY HEART – FROM ME TO THEE – JUANITA TO JOHN – ON MARRIAGE

Because all have seen,

and some have innocently envied,

such Marital bliss between us for almost 20 years . . .

I am the most qualified to opine:

Although capable of great love for all humanity,

there exists for each of us –

only one absolutely perfect mate.

When you meet, it is impossible to understand

anything other than true love’s Marriage Union,

defined by The Lord’s spark of perfection in us.

Treasured instinctive glances at happiness –

becomes divine inspiration of the millennia.

A smile,

a kiss,

an embrace –

solidifies God’s plan –

for he to leave his mother and father,

and cleave unto his wife –

whom God gloriously made –

as a woman from man’s rib.

In Heavenly promise are they –

male and female;

sexual opposites attracting –

ever yearning for fulfillment.

In beauty is every whispered vow –

of love and Marriage,

of God’s perfect design.

Ordained by our Lord,

of Marriage in promise;

and in remembrance,

of The Divine,

Inseparable Love,

between the three.

Between God our Father,

The Groom,

And The Spirit-filled Bride.

If I had been faithfully raised up,

as a young child –

All of The Holy,

Matrimonial promises,

would have been this Bride’s wisdom.

I would not have floundered in sinful ignorance.

I would have waited in sacred promise,

for my one best and true love;

chosen for me by God.

So clearly, what has proven to be true;

For me, It was always to have been you.

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