Category Archives: Very Personal

MY MUSIC

There it is inside me;
I hear the music
that is the expression
of who I am.
It becomes more difficult
as age disguises me
to reconcile this broken body
with my inner music.
When I was young
my music commanded
the whole world
to see my symphony.
It is becoming easier in time
to be alone with my music
feeling every irregular phrase
of my very intimate rhapsody.
Will I never feel exquisite again?
A beautiful duet forever gone;
leaving me ever wondering
will I never again be me?
When I think of harmonizing
my life with an unknown new tune,
I feel my eyes reluctantly opening
while my song slides into the blues.
My heart yearns for the me
of a heart full of life’s light,
so beautiful, and so very bright –
of the symphony of my youth.
I dream to be a softly precious thing;
my heart strings tuned to sing
a consistently beautiful melody
looking for the most perfect tune.

Texas Lady Juanita

Copyright © 2020 by Juanita Holloway-Walters

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A MEMORY COMPANION

He thought enough of me
to converse a thousand
kinds of conversations
over thousands of days.

He thought enough of me
to break bread a thousand
kinds of epicurean delights
over thousands of meals.

He thought enough of me
to court me every day
with romance and love
enough to fill a fine book.

He thought enough of me
to make millions of memories
very sweet and love true
over millions of moments.

He thought enough of me
to vow before almighty God
to love, trust, and cherish
until death we do part.

How do I finally say goodbye?
How do I redirect my vows
from my forever true love
to any possibility of other.

My heart yearns to turn
the dimension of time
infinitely backwards
to my comforting memories.

Now it has become painful
to bottle up the thousands
of leftover I love yous
trapped in my heart.

I have become lonely
since he went to be
with The Lord above
who loves us completely.

I will confess to His Spirit
my forever true Friend
who lives deep inside
my forever soul and spirit

I find as time goes by
a million unstoppable
new thoughts and feelings
bubbling up inside my heart.

I dream of an imagined love
who converses and dines
with a different sort of me
making memories anew.

And I wonder is it possible
from our Creator, above
to have in His plan for me
another memory companion.

Texas Lady Juanita

Copyright © 2019 by Juanita Holloway-Walters

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HAPPY NEW YEAR

First, the eulogy I have only just now been able to write,
for my husband who went to be with Jesus January 16, 2018. I am almost whole again. Yes, it is true, I have been defined by a beautiful word most of the prior 23 years before this one. The word is exquisite. It is full of everything a woman comfortable in her own skin feels when loved in equal measure by someone she loves. There is nothing that compares to feeling like this – nothing. It is born from a simple touch by one who exudes trust with every smile, tear, word, lyric, touch, kiss, intimacy, and commonality of faith in our loving Creator. It has been my pleasure and my honor to love and be in love with John.

On this, our first anniversary apart (New Year’s Eve 11:45 p.m.), I can still close my eyes, and feel exquisite from memory. The Lord gets the glory of this thing He defined for us; this thing called marriage. In this I have been blessed beyond measure. With each passing day I feel John’s presence a little less. I have felt my Mamma’s presence every day since her passing, but not so with John. I sense beyond about a dozen dimensions, that he is happy and very busy. I should not be surprised that The Lord would have lofty uses for my Marine in the Spiritual Battles waged in Heaven above. I imagine John as nothing less than a Colonel. His faith was alive and real every hour of every day.

Moving on to the here and now.
I am happy and at peace. I have odd thoughts of a new chapter in my life beginning soon. I am a little afraid. The only chapter I got right in my life was the last one with John. Before that – before the healing of Juanita through our Lord and Savior – I was broken and unable to pick a man to be my husband who was interested in the long term with me. I remember concluding that I must not be lovable. Oh, what a sad feeling that was. But, The Lord knew better, and healed my heart and soul. I just need to remember to trust in The Lord’s plan for my life – harder said than always done. I know we are each here for God’s glory.

My spine doctor managed to avoid the comparative MRI results of my spine – 2018 MRI vs. 2015 MRI – for a few visits, but we finally broached the subject. The words I was left with in my mind are “awful mess.” The words he used, in obvious hopes I would let it go, were ‘a lot of scarring, a lot of wear and tear, and much degeneration’. Well hell, I guess if you have Degenerative Spine Disease (as well as RA, OA, Fibro, Neuropathy, and IBS) for forty years, much degeneration is to be expected. The week before my PCP had called up the MRI on the screen to assure me that the results were in. He looked at the screen, my face, and quickly shut it down. I had not seen the “awful mess” picture before, and now know why no one ever shows the film to me. As a lay person, I cannot get the words “awful mess” to go away. But, I am still a tribute to my stubbornness. I walk, take good care of myself, my dog, and my belongings. I think I enjoy my roadster convertible so much because with the wind in my hair, I feel like I am running; and when the music is good, I am dancing.

This last few weeks I have had unexpected feelings of joy just bubbling out of me! Joy, my old friend, did not abandon me after all. I think my beautiful and talented Grandgirls have had a lot to do with this. They are both an awesome blend of their mamma and daddy. I admit that one of them is a mini-me! Well, she is the me I would have been, had I been raised in a less stressful parentage, and much more nurturing. I love them both with every fiber of my being in such a special way that I had never hoped to have with grandchildren. Sadly, because of the continuing war between their parents, my other three older grandchildren have been weaponized by the situation with their parents against me. Their father because I am my daughter’s mother; and their mother because if she cannot have them, then no one else can either. I pray for them every day, for their war wounds are obvious, and deep. I love my daughter, and my grandchildren from afar. I have been wondering if what The Lord has in store for me on my path has to do with helping broken families in some way, since I have come to understand so many dynamics in this field of study.

Well, my goodness, I sure did cover a huge field of HAPPY NEW YEAR. I am getting things out in the open to begin the New Year right. I don’t believe in New Year’s Resolutions. They are like laws that can only condemn when we fall short of the mark. Last night at midnight I asked my Grandgirls to tell me one of their dreams for their future. I told them that this is what we will do each New Year’s Eve from now on. They didn’t take it very seriously, but as the years go by they will get the hang of it. I pray they continue this tradition into their adult years, and beyond. Dreams make our world go around and around in hope, love, faith, and joy. God bless you today and always.

You may quote me in these thoughts,
Texas Lady Juanita
Copyright © 2019 by Juanita Holloway-Walters

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WANTED: LAWYERS TO REPRESENT BABY BOOMERS IN CLASS ACTION LAWSUIT

WANTED: LAWYERS TO REPRESENT BABY BOOMERS IN CLASS ACTION LAWSUIT.
Millions of Baby Boomers need a class action suit against their Congress for giving away our Social Security and our Medicare funds to those who did not pay into the system. Congress is giving our funds away deliberately to bankrupt BABY BOOMERS, and the USA.
You may quote me in this,
Texas Lady Juanita
Copyright © 2018 by Juanita Holloway-Walters

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REALITY CHECK – DECEMBER 2018


I have had no high hopes regarding any POTUS, SCOTUS, Senator, or Governor bringing total justice and salvation to WE THE PEOPLE. My heart, my soul, my gut has been telling me for many weeks not to put any faith in these men. The Lord will use them for His purpose in His timing, and for that I am truly thankful. I only have faith and trust in my Lord, my King, and Savior, Jesus Christ.

There will be much ado about trials and tribunals in January, and probably through the entire 2019. WE THE PEOPLE will seem to win the day, and there will be justice for some. Hopefully it will not take much time for WE THE PEOPLE to realize that our only hope is in a different kind of change.

You see, this “GREAT AWAKENING” that is happening here and around the world – should have been Christian, but it isn’t – it is purely THE RED PILL PARTY*.
(*I think I am the first one to identify this new political party.)
The ‘JESUS folks’ in the masses will not get on their knees, ask forgiveness, and put their trust in Him. Very sad. We came so close.

The End Times Can was not kicked out of the field, only kicked down the road by a week of years at the most, if that. I continue to pray for a true GREAT SPIRITUAL AWAKENING based on our BELIEF in THE GOSPEL REGARDING JESUS CHRIST and living His Commandments. If that were to happen, everything would change overnight.

– The man-made denominations would throw out their man-made laws and rules that have divided, and sub-divided The Body of Christ – which is supposed to be ONE CHURCH – ONE BODY.
– The garbage mankind is consumed with on the SCREENS of many sizes and purposes would disappear for the lack of any following.
– We would stop the 5G disaster before it happens.
– Men and Women would be thankful for how God made them in His image and vision, instead of rebelling against THE GIFT OF LIFE from our CREATOR.
– The book of Matthew would become the first step in re-acquainting us with Jesus’ vision for our lives. I can witness to all – of first-hand knowledge of the difference in a culture of life vs. a culture of death.
– Christians would remember that ‘the way is narrow,’ and ‘no one goes to The Father except through the Son, Jesus Christ.’

There is so much more, but it is pointless to go there until a foundation of love and understanding of God’s Word bursts forth – alive – in a GREAT SPIRITUAL AWAKENING. I pray for God’s will to be done every day.

You may quote me on this,
Texas Lady Juanita
Copyright © 2018 by Juanita Holloway-Walters

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EVERYDAY LOVE

It began long ago, It seems . . .
With a prayer to The Lord above.
Longing for the man of my dreams;
Asking God to pick my true love.

The excitement of our first good-night kiss;
That he swore said, “love me forever” –
Led quickly to Godly union in marital bliss,
And a double familial blending endeavor.

And I cry,
For the memories,
Of our everyday love.

Unexpected gifts of words,
Collected in a private file,
Of verses for song birds,
Composed to make me smile.

Surprise weekend destinations;
No phones; no briefcases; no teens.
O.M.G! Such romantic locations!
Where memory films the scenes.

And I cry,
For the memories,
Of our everyday love.

Careers blossomed with fun and spectacular style.
Soon we enjoyed our comfortable empty nest,
A time for loving, and life slowed down for a while;
We knew beyond all measure were we blessed.

Could this honeymoon marriage last the rest of my life?
“I am sorry, it is not to be for you.” I was told.
“You will help your love until death. You are a good wife.”
But why punish me, how can You be so cold?

And I cry,
For the memories,
Of our everyday love.

(Rev 21:4 )
“And God shall wipe away all tears
neither shall there be any more pain:”
With these words He vanquished my fears,
My love is joyful again in His Heavenly Plane.

(Jeremiah 29:11)
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord,
“plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and a future.“ I have your word.
I pray to know why I am still here, alone and so blue.

And still I cry,
For the ever-vivid memories,
Of our everyday love.

Texas Lady Juanita
Copyright © 2018 by Juanita Holloway-Walters
All Rights Reserved.

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SECRET TO BEING HAPPY IN MY WORK

Concerning my career, I was always a “fast-tracker,” and a “super achiever” with awesome habits. I loved working, and being able to take good care of my two children. 

About the time of my empty nest, I became disenchanted with my work, and an endless stream of “underachievers” available in the workforce, to hire and train.

Then one afternoon, alone in my office, with the door closed, I prayed on this. I had an epiphany from The Holy Spirit. I was not working for a company, or even my family, I was working for The Lord; AND I could not deny the people The Lord put in my life’s path who needed my help.

My attitude about working was not only restored with energy and exuberance, I looked forward to every working day until I was forced to retire for medical disabilities.

From that day of my Faith epiphany forward, I never left my Christian Faith at the threshold of work or play ever again.

America suffers because Christians have been fooled into thinking they must leave the essence of who we are, our Christian Faith, at the threshold of all daily activities and encounters outside of the home and church.

Colossians 3:17, 23, 24
17 And whatsoever ye do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God and the Father by him.23 And whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men;24 Knowing that of the Lord ye shall receive the reward of the inheritance: for ye serve the Lord Christ.

You can quote me on this.

Texas Lady Juanita

Copyright © 2018 by Juanita Holloway-Walters
All Rights Reserved.

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‘MAKING AMERICA GREAT AGAIN’ SERIES – COMMENTARY ONE – MARRIAGE

MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Juanita Holloway-Walters

This is it; the one that caused writer’s block. The subject matter has done much to divide America, and all the way down to the family and close, warm, personal, friend level in society. A question: Why should I turn my back on my centuries old Christian beliefs of marriage, to pretend to embrace someone else’s beliefs – JUST BECAUSE THEY WANT ME TO THINK SOMETHING I AM NOT HARD WIRED TO THINK? It is a ridiculous proposition. I am praying the emotional blackmail of deceitful Political Correctness has run its course, and failed in America. We may be surprised at how fast certain aspects of the Politically Correct model of America may change over-night, if American Christians turn away from Secular Christianity fraught with agnostic, and even pagan beliefs.

It still confounds me as to how such a small segment of our population was hijacked by the enemy within, using the truly evil practices of Political Correctness to insert counter-culture ideals into the very core of our American Culture. The “latest estimate shows that 3.8% of our population actually identify as LGBT,” as per Gallup. (1) We can scarcely turn on the big or little screens without having the gay lifestyle crammed down our throats. The fabric of our Christian nation is weak to have allowed this content to be in the realm of 100% saturation of our children through school, through television, and through music.

SKREEEEECCCHHHHHHH! STOP! NEWS FLASH! THE LIONS SHARE OF BLAME FOR OUR POLITICALLY CORRECT BROKEN AMERICA IS NOT THE 3.8% OF OUR POPULATION — IT IS A LARGE PORTION OF THE 75% OF AMERICANS WHO SAY THEY ARE CHRISTIANS – but, do not follow the Commandments Jesus gave us; nor do they follow the Ten Commandments handed down to Moses from God. No Christian precept may have been violated more than the scriptures telling us about Marriage. How many married Christians are following what the Word of God says about marriage? What Baby Boomers passed down to our children, and grandchildren is a lack of respect for our heterosexual Christian marriage. If the institution of marriage had not been sorely abused, we would be a wholesome America not needing to “Make America Great Again.”

How many marriages failed because The Lord was not present in the marriage? I can tell you that The Lord was not present in my failed marriages. Then I got on my knees and asked the Lord to forgive me for having a victim mentality when it came to relationships with men. I did not know my scriptures well, and therefore, I had no reference of what life was all about. Because I did not know my Bible, I was totally without any real help. We exist for God’s glory, and if we are here for God’s glory, then we should know what pleases God. One day I prayed to understand the scriptures, and it was as if a light had been turned on in my soul, and in my mind. Not only do I understand the scriptures, but I also understand who is in the scriptures and why my understanding is so important to a happy life.

Not long after that, I prayed on my knees, and asked The Lord to pick me a husband who loved The Lord, would be faithful to me, and who would love me in all the ways I love. My marriage with John for two decades has been a miracle to me every day. The love and respect in the beginning has grown over the years. Hardships came and went without much fuss, because we had something bigger in our lives than teen aged children testing us at every turn, careers, wealth, or health issues. I look back and see much love and laughter every day of our marriage ordained by God. We pray to be an example to our loved ones, and to others . . . even to be a catalyst for others to improve their marriages. John and I see other good marriages, and we are further strengthened in the purpose of the gifts God has given each of us to be a help to you when we are able.

For Americans to “Make America Great Again,” America’s Christian population must renew their relationship with Christ, and renew their commitment to great marriages. Great marriages make great families. Great families make an involved citizenry that looks to local schools, churches, and community institutions with The Lord’s Christian Absolutes in mind. WE DO NOT CHECK OUR CHRISTIAN FAITH AT ANY DOOR, FOR ANYONE. If we are Christian, who we are is Christian to the bone.

Sadly, only a small percentage of today’s American Christian population has read The Bible. Because they do not know what their Bible says, they have nothing of encouraging value when it is most needed.
“Today, about one-third of American adults report reading the Bible once a week or more. The percentage is highest among Elders (49%) and lowest among Millennials (24%).” (2) The Word of God, contains the Moral Absolutes Christians need to live a wholesome life.  ‘All come short of His Glory’ (3); and when we have fallen short of His Glory, we are to repent, seek forgiveness, and move on in life without the need to keep going back to learn the same lesson over, and over again. We are to grow spiritually, for which there is much help in studying The Bible.

Satan, and his minions, exist to trip you up by giving you the Big Lie of Moral Relativism. It means that my faith is the faith of life, and someone else’s is the faith of death. Moral Relativism says that they are equal and both true. It also means that the death crowd believes their views should be taught to my children, and it is only fair for my children to be exposed to their minority faith. I do not believe in Moral Relativism, and cannot abide by such negative and lethal forces to be allowed anywhere near my children, and grandchildren.

The truth is that our marriages are a reminder of the relationship Christ has with His Church here on Earth. When we dishonor the millennium old tradition of Christian marriage, we are also dishonoring our relationship with Christ – we are The Church – Christ’s Church. Our marriages should be an example to all the goodness of Holy union with our spouse, and with our Lord as members of His Church. There are many scriptures about marriage, but this is the most excellent in my view:

“EPHESIANS 5:
“20 Giving thanks always for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ;

21 Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God.

22 Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto The Lord.

23 For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of the Church: and He is the saviour of the body.

24 Therefore as The Church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing.

25 Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;

26 That He might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by The Word,

27 That He might present it to Himself a glorious Church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish.

28 So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He that loveth his wife loveth himself.

29 For no man ever yet hated his own flesh; but nourisheth and cherisheth it, even as The Lord The Church:

30 For we are members of His body, of His flesh, and of His bones.

31 For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother, and shall be joined unto his wife, and they two shall be one flesh.

32 This is a great mystery: but I speak concerning Christ and The Church.

33 Nevertheless let every one of you in particular so love his wife even as himself; and the wife see that she reverence her husband.”

Not that John and I have the perfect marriage, for there is no such thing under the sun; however, we stand on 20+ years of the closest thing to it that either of us have ever seen. We have seen other good marriages, but ours is almost supernaturally excellent. The Lord matched us up – two givers. The love and mutual respect is a part of the success. I think that we like our male and female roles, and we enjoy being male and female as God made us down to the DNA in our cells. We have also been blessed beyond measure, and our prayers have all been answered. We do not forget to ask Him to help us attain needed medical help, as well as help for others. Some say we are lucky. I don’t believe in luck; I believe in recognizing the blessings in our lives without ceasing.

Solomon was the second son of David and Bathsheba. His mother worried that his father had taught him to be a womanizer. Bathsheba’s pet name for her son is Lemuel and we see in Proverb 31 the advice she imparts to him regarding a wife – a wife worthy of a King!!

PROVERB 31
10 
Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies.

11 The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil.

12 She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life.

13 She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands.

14 She is like the merchants’ ships; she bringeth her food from afar.

15 She riseth also while it is yet night, and giveth meat to her household, and a portion to her maidens.

16 She considereth a field, and buyeth it: with the fruit of her hands she planteth a vineyard.

17 She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengtheneth her arms.

18 She perceiveth that her merchandise is good: her candle goeth not out by night.

19 She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold the distaff.

20 She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy.

21 She is not afraid of the snow for her household: for all her household are clothed with scarlet.

22 She maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her clothing is silk and purple.

23 Her husband is known in the gates, when he sitteth among the elders of the land.

24 She maketh fine linen, and selleth it; and delivereth girdles unto the merchant.

25 Strength and honour are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come.

26 She openeth her mouth with wisdom; and in her tongue is the law of kindness.

27 She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness.

28 Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her.

29 Many daughters have done virtuously, but thou excellest them all.

30 Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the Lord, she shall be praised.

31 Give her of the fruit of her hands; and let her own works praise her in the gates.”

We have witnessed in America the deliberate masculation of women by certain factions of our population, and the counter emasculation of men in that process. For every movement under the sun, there is a counter movement that occurs. Women hit their forties and wondered at their biological clocks tick, tick, ticking away, and the absence of available marriageable men. Many of these women became bitter and angry, without recognizing if they had played a part in the sad outcome . . . without asking for forgiveness for the error of their ways, and their biological clock alarms stopped ringing. Many men who turned from women, have not found the peace they were seeking. The saddest part in all of this is the effect it has had on the next two generations.

The studies of children in America is a hotbed of information. It matters not who did the study, or how scientific, there is always a group of naysayers. “Dr. Mark Regnerus is a University of Texas Sociologist who rocketed to fame – or infamy, depending on one’s views of homosexual parenting – in 2012 with the publication of his study about how well children are doing.” (4) Other studies from the LGBT crowd have proven to be “fixed” by the subjects in the study. Dr. Regnerus’ study skyrocketed because of his actual random sampling of a large study group. BUT, we can look to studies of children from broken homes, alcoholic homes, abusive home, welfare homes, and homes of any extreme element, to find that children from these homes are in an emotional pickle, just as the children in the Dr. Regnerus study.

Children need boundaries for themselves and their friends (so important), for their siblings, and for their parents – the rules of acceptable behavior – or Moral Absolutes. To find success in our lives, we need only look to our Lord and Savior, and what He tells us in the scriptures. My favorite place for Jesus advice is the book of Matthew, but they are found in all the Gospels, as well as the letters Jesus wrote to the churches in Revelation, and on every page of the Bible. The most important and widely read book since Jesus death and resurrection, is sadly not being read by all Christians. It is the only book that will help heal our Republic; and it is pivotal in American’s “Making America Great Again.” Without a return to Biblical Christianity, any attempts of restoring the Republic would be weak at best. This is where the healing must begin.

Copyright © 2016 by Juanita Holloway-Walters, All Rights Reserved

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More Bible verses about marriage for your own study. These plus the ones noted in the commentary above would make a good long-term small group study:

Genesis 2:18                                         Psalm 128:1-6               Proverbs 5:12-14
Proverbs 20:6-7                                     Malachi 2:13-14             1 Corinthians 7:3
Colossians 3:18-19                                1 Timothy 5:14              Hebrews 13:4

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(1) http://www.gallup.com/poll/183383/americans-greatly-overestimate-percent-gay-lesbian.aspx
(2) http://www.barna.com/research/the-bible-in-america-6-year-trends/#
(3) Romans 3:23
(4) http://www.cnsnews.com/commentary/lynn-wardle/childrens-sake-we-must-not-ignore-differences-between-heterosexual-and-same

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MY CHRISTMAS MESSAGE 2016

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John and I are alive and still have our child quality in good working order. hehehe Christmas is first and foremost for us to joyfully celebrate Christ being born, and knowing the message of The Cross.
It is difficult for children to appreciate the concept of salvation and the work of The Cross. We make the Christmas holiday important to our children, so that when they become older, we can share the value of salvation, and the work of the cross. They will already know, because we did it right, that Christmas is a time to teach the joys of giving, and receiving love, food, and gifts.
Merry Christmas to all of my friends, family, and acquaintances I see in person and in FB every day; and a very prosperous new year.

P.S. If someone rags on you about your Christmas tree – remind them that it is for fun, especially for the children – NO ONE worships the trees – not even close.
We worship Jesus Christ. Can I Get An Amen?

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UPDATE JOHN AND JUANITA / COMING OUT OF HIDING / BEN-JAMIN!!! FREAKING FRANKLIN (Loving the Founders still.) HMMM, WE WILL CALL THIS ONE TRANSITION.

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picture-for-3-foot-wide-canvasThis Texan has been transplanted in Ohio / the farm belt / and I am a very happy camper!
This photograph is part of our Ohio family – taken not too long ago by a professional photographer in our home. Katie – our new via son-in-law, 14-year-old, Grandgirl. Beautiful, smart, funny – thank you Lord for one with so much promise, and a new generation of Birthday slumber parties in my basement.
David and Natalie Pumpkin (lol – chances of new son-in-law, David, thinking I think their last name is Pumpkin is remote), and me and my love John. You can see for yourselves that John and I really are the Happy, Fluffy (well-fed), (short), People. I am wearing 4” heels. Please don’t tell my doctor.

Natalie and I . . . it is on our faces . . . reunited, daughter and mother. I am so proud; I am popping my buttons. Perfect? No. She doesn’t have to be with me. But she is a very amazing woman. College degreed about the time her oldest became an adult, flying further in her career ambitions than she had imagined, blame me for this food item – putting a hot meal on the table for her family almost every night, and pursuing new interests – wow. John and I are on her new interests list. She has been a huge and loving help for us. Thank you Lord for Natalie. The Lord, and Natalie get all the credit. She is the apple that didn’t fall far from the tree – and that is all I had to do with it.

John and I are each other’s care taker, and I think we both need a little help to unravel what that means going forward. This is interesting to me in that I think it may be something I will write about in the near future. I no longer have the identities I used to have: corporate whiz kid fast-tracker (innate leader and problem solver type A person LOL!!! – a type Z personality now in these senior years?), 27 years being a mother – close up and personal raising of children — identities I liked about myself. At 64, half of my identity is John (and opposite for him). Fear of losing half of one’s identity is very scary – ESPECIALLY when the love of one’s life is at stake – not to mention my best friend.

I have tackled this by creating memories every single day – and actively think about it when I pray each day about the next day.  We have learned to play each day by ear. We love our new (to us) Ohio home so much, that we have more fun at home than going out on date night.

It may have taken us a long time to fix up the deck that was ugly, but we do get the most romantic of results . . . if “Home” is romantic to you – and it is to me. This is the end of the home projects we started last November 17, 2015.

We are truly blessed beyond measure. We no longer look at days as “good days” or ” bad days”; but!!!! for us, pain, disease, etc. is what it is – and it DOES NOT get to define us – WE REMAIN THE HAPPY FLUFFY PEOPLE.

Please do pray for us, we do have some medical difficulties that are wearing us down a little. It is good that we love well; I don’t know how couples without our love get through it all. We are, and have been each other’s “care taker” in the home, and we get tired, but not beaten. To my friends, thank you for your prayers.

COMING OUT OF HIDING . . .  You would think that disease (his and mine), me going Septic and almost dying in later October, going through with the November 1st move from Texas to Ohio, BEING A SNOW VIRGIN – WOW I LOVE IT!!!, remodeling of our Ohio home with huge success, doing the front yard (wasted some $$ there), and the deck project in the back yard is why I have been mostly absent from talking to all of you out there (if there is anyone left out there looking for my words LOL!!!), but that would be a wrong assumption.

Many months ago I came back around to a topic that I have avoided for years. It is a good thing, because I have been forced to not only re-think my position, but to better understand what God has to say on the subject. It is a hard subject, and I will leave it a mystery for now – just know that it is the one that almost made me stop publishing my thoughts. I write almost every day. To bring you the new subject, I will have a formal burning of my piles and piles and piles and piles of notes – and begin new with my heart open to you and the Lord.

As soon as I tell you about Benjamin Franklin, I will close for today, and start building the bon-fire of notes in the BBQ Pit – Wish it was a cooler than 50’s night, I would just burn them in the fire place that I love. Speaking of fire places – I remembered from my childhood at my grands in NJ that fireplaces were for roasting marshmallows (until S’mores came to Texas Girl Scouts, I happily thought it a Yankee activity). I can take a long fork, put 2 Marshmallows (from my secret stash), turn the gas on, and be eating the gooeyness of them all in about 60 seconds. YUM

NOW FOR BENJAMIN . . .
“The refusal of King George III to allow the colonies to operate an honest money system, which freed the ordinary man from the clutches of the money manipulators was probably the prime cause of the Revolution.” Benjamin Franklin

You all must know by now that America has been in the clutches of the money manipulators for a long, long time. Lucky for Americans and American prosperity, two things were at play until the last 40 years or so:
1. God’s protection to this Republic that was created for God’s Glory (not going to waste time proving that again. Either you are well read and know this, or you are happy letting the money manipulators write your history for you.)
2. The Money Manipulators kept out of sight far enough to let America be the shining example on the hill. Sadly, as soon as they decided to come out into the light, and destroy America, the majority of American’s lost their faith, and belief in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Don’t believe me? Just turn on the television. On a side note: Satan is laughing his “buttocks” * off when he sees the young folk making the millennium old hand sign beckoning him to them. Sad, but true.

*My attempt to use a politically correct word. Why is this a better word than ass?????

Okay, the following explanation is OVER simplified for the hope of my making my point about money:
Money should be based on labor – man hours’ possible x 3 levels of population – 1. Dig the ditch level of labor; 2. Build the infrastructure of all the buildings and ditches; 3. The truly talented and CREATIVE – and I don’t mean those that can dunk a basketball – I mean those that can create a clean water system in the desert so all men have water (go R. O. Systems for Africans who are living in a place where the natural water is undrinkable!) X population of all 3. There would be a formula for how much money should be in circulation, which can be corrected daily via a computer program I could probably write, and that actually puts me in labor camp 2. above, though I would aspire to work myself into 3. above.

What you have is a bunch of paper that the Federal Reserve (a corporation that has nothing to do with our government / Congress which is supposed to be printing our money) gives to America, and charges America interest to do this! For printing paper! NO. Now days, for typing 1’s and 0’s into a computer program. For this, we paid /owe them trillions in interest over decades upon decades of charging us this interest.
This is thievery on a level so deeply wrong that those who perpetrate this system on Americans should all be thrown under the jail forever (and he, the chief instigator of this will be one day thrown into a pit of fire). If a court made the Fed give back all the interest they should never have been paid – because it was stolen under false pretenses to the American public – we, as a nation would not be in debt.

Some will say that if the Fed didn’t do what they did, we would never have been a great country. LAUGH OUT LOUD AT THAT. We are Americans. We are different. We have been exceptional up until the Fed took the mask off and I am ashamed to say – they bested Americans through trickery, and through everyone’s greed (Enron, .COMS, UNEARNED HOMES, the war on poverty that has created the most horrible never-ending poverty system the world has known, the war on drugs in which politicians and drug lords ensure we will never win . . . the coming college education loan bubble). All of those BUSTED BUBBLES? Well, Americans were tricked into them in part, and American’ s are still learning a hard lesson about greed, and the death of their faith.

. . . I bought some bushes, ground cover, and a tree for our new front yard from the biggest nursery online I could find. I bought a one-year guarantee. When the tree died, and now the bushes and ground cover are dying, I tell John – go and get our new tree and bushes, please. John reads the fine print. I am going to have to pay half price for them (I paid half price originally). So, if I am stupid enough I will buy them again for half price – NO WAY!!! John pointed out that the one-year guarantee only cost me $4.95.

AMERICA! WHEN YOU SET OUT TO GET SOMETHING FOR NOTHING – DO NOT BE SURPRISED THAT NOTHING IS WHAT YOU WILL END UP WITH. Juanita

Boy, do I feel stupid!!!! $4.95 for a one-year guarantee on hundreds of dollars’ worth of a tree, bushes, and ground cover?  Shame on me. I do know better.

Folks that think you should pay someone who flips hamburgers the same as the man who designs and builds homes, and the same as the man who saves lives, are foolish. We are seeing first hand this week what happens when you pay millions of dollars to a man who plays a game, and you pay Firemen, Policemen, and Marines a pittance in comparison. One, we need to re-check our value system. Two, we need to unpeg our dollars from the Fed, and re-peg it to the labor of Americans who work – physical labor, supporting labor, and creating labor. I worked my way up from physical labor to supporting labor faster than many folks, and I worked my butt off. My fuel was to raise my kids to be the best Americans I could muster with all my WORK, heart, prayers, and soul. Being an American was, and is a worthy thing to be for us Baby Boomers and our parents – Americans are amazing. Because of my values, my children are each equally successful, part supporting labor, and part creative labor. We better hope that the majority of Americans under the age of 45 are the same type of Americans as my children.

It didn’t happen by accident. When my son thought money was growing on trees – in his mid-teens, I arranged with my business owner a summer job for him. My son, that I love, squatted down with a jack-hammer punching holes in concrete for rebar; and he accused me of trying to kill him . . . LOUDLY FOR ALL MY BUSINESS OWNERS AND SUBORDINATES TO HEAR!!!!!!! . . . (we were all older and wiser LOL) . . . and on the day, 2 weeks in, that he received his first paycheck, he stopped crying, and started being the best jack-hammer operator there is. At the end of the summer, he bought a used Dodge truck that he loved, and we had to say NO, you cannot quit school to work. Jeeeeesh, kids – gosh I miss my little. people . . . then my young people. They have little people and young people of their own, and I am proud.
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So, I am not going to hide anymore behind the one commentary that I hated to have to write. I will publish it sometime in the next couple of weeks; for I know I must conquer this one or stop writing. Love to you all. Prayers for you all; and I do thank you for your prayers for my love and I.

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