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HAPPY NEW YEAR

First, the eulogy I have only just now been able to write,
for my husband who went to be with Jesus January 16, 2018. I am almost whole again. Yes, it is true, I have been defined by a beautiful word most of the prior 23 years before this one. The word is exquisite. It is full of everything a woman comfortable in her own skin feels when loved in equal measure by someone she loves. There is nothing that compares to feeling like this – nothing. It is born from a simple touch by one who exudes trust with every smile, tear, word, lyric, touch, kiss, intimacy, and commonality of faith in our loving Creator. It has been my pleasure and my honor to love and be in love with John.

On this, our first anniversary apart (New Year’s Eve 11:45 p.m.), I can still close my eyes, and feel exquisite from memory. The Lord gets the glory of this thing He defined for us; this thing called marriage. In this I have been blessed beyond measure. With each passing day I feel John’s presence a little less. I have felt my Mamma’s presence every day since her passing, but not so with John. I sense beyond about a dozen dimensions, that he is happy and very busy. I should not be surprised that The Lord would have lofty uses for my Marine in the Spiritual Battles waged in Heaven above. I imagine John as nothing less than a Colonel. His faith was alive and real every hour of every day.

Moving on to the here and now.
I am happy and at peace. I have odd thoughts of a new chapter in my life beginning soon. I am a little afraid. The only chapter I got right in my life was the last one with John. Before that – before the healing of Juanita through our Lord and Savior – I was broken and unable to pick a man to be my husband who was interested in the long term with me. I remember concluding that I must not be lovable. Oh, what a sad feeling that was. But, The Lord knew better, and healed my heart and soul. I just need to remember to trust in The Lord’s plan for my life – harder said than always done. I know we are each here for God’s glory.

My spine doctor managed to avoid the comparative MRI results of my spine – 2018 MRI vs. 2015 MRI – for a few visits, but we finally broached the subject. The words I was left with in my mind are “awful mess.” The words he used, in obvious hopes I would let it go, were ‘a lot of scarring, a lot of wear and tear, and much degeneration’. Well hell, I guess if you have Degenerative Spine Disease (as well as RA, OA, Fibro, Neuropathy, and IBS) for forty years, much degeneration is to be expected. The week before my PCP had called up the MRI on the screen to assure me that the results were in. He looked at the screen, my face, and quickly shut it down. I had not seen the “awful mess” picture before, and now know why no one ever shows the film to me. As a lay person, I cannot get the words “awful mess” to go away. But, I am still a tribute to my stubbornness. I walk, take good care of myself, my dog, and my belongings. I think I enjoy my roadster convertible so much because with the wind in my hair, I feel like I am running; and when the music is good, I am dancing.

This last few weeks I have had unexpected feelings of joy just bubbling out of me! Joy, my old friend, did not abandon me after all. I think my beautiful and talented Grandgirls have had a lot to do with this. They are both an awesome blend of their mamma and daddy. I admit that one of them is a mini-me! Well, she is the me I would have been, had I been raised in a less stressful parentage, and much more nurturing. I love them both with every fiber of my being in such a special way that I had never hoped to have with grandchildren. Sadly, because of the continuing war between their parents, my other three older grandchildren have been weaponized by the situation with their parents against me. Their father because I am my daughter’s mother; and their mother because if she cannot have them, then no one else can either. I pray for them every day, for their war wounds are obvious, and deep. I love my daughter, and my grandchildren from afar. I have been wondering if what The Lord has in store for me on my path has to do with helping broken families in some way, since I have come to understand so many dynamics in this field of study.

Well, my goodness, I sure did cover a huge field of HAPPY NEW YEAR. I am getting things out in the open to begin the New Year right. I don’t believe in New Year’s Resolutions. They are like laws that can only condemn when we fall short of the mark. Last night at midnight I asked my Grandgirls to tell me one of their dreams for their future. I told them that this is what we will do each New Year’s Eve from now on. They didn’t take it very seriously, but as the years go by they will get the hang of it. I pray they continue this tradition into their adult years, and beyond. Dreams make our world go around and around in hope, love, faith, and joy. God bless you today and always.

You may quote me in these thoughts,
Texas Lady Juanita
Copyright © 2019 by Juanita Holloway-Walters

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FROM THE HEART – WHO IS YOUR GOD?

The truth, is the truth.
Listen with an open heart, mind and soul to this nine minute video.
Nine minutes is a blink in time, but you can know the truth in nine minutes.
No one will escape reality.
No one will avoid the consequences of willful ignorance.
No one will be able to hide in an apostate church.
No one will avoid judgement for their actions / inaction.

Do you have a penitent heart?
Do you believe in the whole Gospel regarding Jesus Christ?
I have previously posted scientific evidence only this time in history could know of our Creator.
All He asks is your belief, which will awaken the Holy Spirit within you,
and you will be changed forever – He will know.
He came to us as one of us to teach,
and then do the work on the cross only He could do,
and give evidence of His resurrection that hundreds witnessed.
He already paid the price of His blood for your salvation.

Copyright © 2015 by Juanita Holloway-Walters
All Rights Reserved.

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Danny Gokey – Hope in Front of Me (Official Lyric Video)

This is so much more worthy of our hearts, minds, and souls. Listen and enjoy.

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IT IS YOUR CALL, AND TIME IS SHORT

Human Nature, whether we are talking about one person or a group of people, is the same everywhere. It is the cause and effect of millions of individuals living their lives in agreed upon similar fashion that creates truly great and positive nations. The opposite would be individuals living their lives in conflict and chaos that creates truly meager and negative nations. Some societies lost control over their outcome a long time ago, and it is almost like they do not have human genes, but instead, the genes of some self-destructive species. Some societies are so far into their dysfunction as to be anti-life. Sadly, America has been slowly, but steadily on this destructive path for about a hundred years. Why sad? There has been no other nation of great providence and human endeavor on earth like America, and she is losing her life-blood in a day by day deterioration. Whether all humankind around the world realizes it or not, their anger at America is primarily caused by their individual loss of hope deep in their souls. Where America goes – so goes the world.

When America was in her founding years, and even through the immediate decades after WWII, she gave hope to the rest of the world. Immigrants came to America to become Americans, and to live the American dream. The American dream was tied up in families of faith and values, education, and positive endeavors. Sinister anti-American forces have slowly deteriorated our educational system, our family system, our Judeo-Christian value system and morality, our state and federal governments, and even our military. The deterioration is like a cancer that grew so slowly, we scarcely noticed it until it accelerated in the last few decades.

Historically, our culture has been a culture of life, liberty, and man’s pursuit of property and fraternity yielding respect and reverence for our very faith guided providence and productive reason. Our natural enemies understand what I am about to share with you. I tell you freely that I am not only Christian, but have had an occasion to witness (many years ago) a miracle in the form of divine connection and revelation. I believe that God wanted me to come to Christianity without ever joining a church – or being involved in any certain Christian denomination for much time. I actually believe the denominations are presently dividing us, but that thought process has been covered in older commentaries. What I wish to share with you has come to me through direct experience in life, and my quest to educate myself regarding reasons for dysfunction in families, and how to fix it.

Yesterday, I had an epiphany regarding the mass anti-life behavior of many in America, and why America is in a systemic destruction sequence. I think I have direct experience with the phenomenon that is killing our Republic. I believe our enemies understand it very well. If it is God’s will, then there isn’t much we can do about it. But, we are not supposed to make such assumptions. As long as we are here on planet earth, we are supposed to carry on in love and in positive endeavor until such time as God, our Creator, decides it is time for Him to take direct action.

When I sought help to understand why I was a dysfunctional person I had to examine who I am in some detail. So much of who I was did not need any fixing . . . responsible, hard-working, and I loved being a wife and mother. My emotions were the dysfunction that did a self-destruct when picking a partner. I had an immature victim mentality that needed to evolve into maturity. My emotional pendulum was way out in some unhealthy zone of existence. I was warned by a very smart psychologist that upon correction my emotional pendulum would swing way out in the extreme opposite direction. One of two possible outcomes would happen in time. Either my emotional pendulum would level out in the middle healthy zones of existence, or it would erroneously stay way out there in a zone that is not conducive for a peaceful and happy life. For me those extreme zones consisted of the victim zone at one end of the pendulum swing, and the other extreme end of that pendulum swing is one who abuses others either mentally or physically. Thankfully, it settled about center, and I have been in a harmonious relationship with John since 1995. Our marriage is considered to be an amazingly happy and healthy example to follow by those that know us.

So, the epiphany . . .
In the first hundred years of America’s existence there was so much good happening that men and women with excellent values worked hard to not rock the boat of all the good things while trying to end the practice of slavery. Slavery has existed around the globe from almost the beginning of time. Today, for example, sexual slavery exists around the globe in abundance. At the time of America’s founding Black men and White men engaged in the slave trade. It should be noted that the majority of Americans did not own slaves, and many worked to end slavery from the very beginning. Only 25% of Colonial Americans owned slaves – and some of those slave owners were themselves Black. “Approximately 625,000 men died in the Civil War, more Americans than in World War I, World War II, the Korean War and the Vietnam War combined. If the names of the Civil War dead were arranged like the names on the Vietnam Memorial, it would stretch over 10 times the wall’s length.”(1) Over 90% of the troops were White, and the balance of the troops was primarily Black.

White Americans paid a huge price for the cause of ending slavery in America. For those Americans today who are descendants of Civil War troops, I say to you that we paid our debt to America’s slaves in our ancestor’s blood. Many Americans, like me, are descended from immigrants who came to America after the era of slavery. Our enemies within America have been like our “psychologist” whom made us feel ashamed for slavery of which we are not the guilty parties. Most of us are no more responsible for the problems of the Black American than we are for the existence of fish in the sea. These same enemy “psychologist” in America, has kept the Black people in poverty, while stirring them up in hate and racism. The Black Americans who are not consumed with hate and racism are those who are involved in their education and endeavors of their hearts desires – the same as White Americans. The majority of the violence perpetrated upon Black people in America, is directly caused by other Black people in America – Black on Black crime is epidemic in proportion. The “Black Ghetto Pimps” keep their fellow Black Americans down with lies and social programs that do not improve any Black person’s situation in life one iota. These primarily Black “Pimps” get rich off of the misery they have created for their race.

America’s psychological pendulum has swung from a society sickened and horrified with the disease of slavery, to a society sick with false White guilt, and Black prejudices and hate instigated and perpetrated on a deliberately dumbed down society. The liberal and progressive political force in America has purposely enslaved the votes of the Black population by breaking up their families and giving just enough welfare to make them dependent – NOT INDEPENDENT. Even though the majority of Baby Boomers were actively involved in reversing racism by raising our children to be color blind, the “Pimps”, and our political enemies within, have been busy inciting division and racism. America’s psychological pendulum swung from one end of the spectrum to the other end, and it needs to come back to center for America to be the nation we were designed to be. For that to happen, every American citizen must wake up from the hypnotism that controls us, and reject the enemies within and the “Pimps.” We must unite and be the united force for a non-violent, centered and healthy America. We must unite and elect from among ourselves men of the uniting vision of Martin Luther King – by judging each other based on our character, and NOT the color of our skin. Our human souls have no color.

When the world sees us through the lens of our renewed Judeo-Christian values, we will once again be the nation others want to emulate. We must unite and reject all of the crap our enemy has lured us to:
–     the anti-life television shows and movies inundated with violence and negative morality lessons that desensitize our offspring and ourselves;
–     the multitudes of laws that seek to make law-breakers out of all citizens in order to control them like animals;
–     the trend in our Administration, Judiciary, and Congress to NOT DO THE WILL OF THE PEOPLE;
–     the trends in our Administration, Judiciary, and Congress to destroy our American Citizens Bill of Rights and our Constitution;
–     the trends in our Administration, Judiciary, and Congress to destroy all endeavors of the small to medium businesses which are Americas #1 employers;
–     the trends in our Administration, Judiciary, and Congress to condone the destructive type of Capitalism that they seek to replace American Capitalism with – their evil Crony Capitalism of un-holy alliance between government and business;
–     the trends in our Administration,  Judiciary, and Congress to punish those of Christian faith (80% of Americans – more than a super-majority);
–     the trends in our Administration, Judiciary, and Congress to give money and arms to America’s known enemies, and to infiltrate our nation with those same enemies.

We must come together in making sure that our next elections, whether they are local, state, or federal are fair elections. The biased media has tried to explain away all of the gross inconsistencies of our last many elections of which both sides of the aisle have been proven to be elections that are manipulated. American citizens must become involved in all phases of their local, state and federal elections.

Most importantly, Americans must mend her divisions among the population of citizens and come back to the healthy center in faith, family, endeavor, and in politics. We have sheer numbers of good citizens on our side when we peacefully heal ourselves in the following ways:
–     Recognize that the majority of Democrats and Republicans who run those political machines are in cahoots against a healthy America.
–     Recognize that the Christian Denominations have been infiltrated to teach hate in some instances, or to teach radical division in some instances, or to teach the worst example of all – secular religion taking away your personal relationship with the Lord. Salvation is a personal experience between each person and the Lord – NOT a group project.
–     Love and Charity are personal experiences – not to be farmed out to the government who cannot even balance their own budget, and cannot keep the graft at a low level. Why would you farm your responsibilities out to the government that cannot reign in their own corruption?

THE TIME IS NOW TO STOP THINKING THAT SAVING AMERICA FROM THE ENEMIES WITHIN IS SOMEONE ELSE’S RESPONSIBILITY. Once upon a time we taught our school children a Civics class. In Civics we learned what our rights and responsibilities are in our REPRESENTATIVE REPUBLIC. We are not, and have never been, a Democracy. A true Democracy always deteriorates fairly rapidly into mob-rule melting down into a Dictatorship, or Fascist State, or Communist State – depending on the thugs who take control the fastest. Sometimes this is done by military force; sometimes it is done over time by propaganda. In Egypt we are seeing the fruits of their people’s try for Democracy – they ignorantly voted for a Dictatorship – and soon the bigger thugs took over, and now it will probably become a Theocracy – rule by Sharia Law – against the will of the people who were looking for freedom in their rebellion, but not thinking far enough ahead to have a plan for their liberty.

What happens to America – whether her pendulum stays way out in extreme parameters of human life – or comes back to center where life is in positive arenas – the outcome is totally up to each individual American. Once upon a time in America, the American dream was viewed as something to strive for, such was so because the core of faith in America was sweet and wholesome. My favorite Bible verses have been so because if we focus on these verses first, we will heal:

Philippians 4:4 – 4:9     “Rejoice in the Lord always: [and] again I say, Rejoice. Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord [is] at hand. Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things [are] honest, whatsoever things [are] just, whatsoever things [are] pure, whatsoever things [are] lovely, whatsoever things [are] of good report; if [there be] any virtue, and if [there be] any praise, think on these things.
Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.”

I beg of you to examine your family, and your individual endeavors of work and of entertainment against these virtues and be honest with yourself about the work you and your family members need to do to be part of the solution, instead of part of America’s destruction. It is your call, and time is very, very short if America is to turn back to a Republic of great providence and human endeavor.

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http://www.history.com/news/10-surprising-civil-war-facts

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