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Earlier – these were my thoughts on someone else’s FB post –
and then I had one of those darn epiphany . . .
For some reason the Lord decided I would be the most minority type of personality in our time (Searcher). One of the things I learned in my mid 30’s when I sought help to understand why I invited so much hurt into my life . . . OMG the first thing my good psychologist friend taught me is that hardly anyone on the planet woke up each day in the world I live in! Sadly I thought everyone lived in the world I envision. I remember my best friend’s Mama picking me up by my shoulders when I was 15 and telling me I was so gullible, I would be dead by 21! I live in a black and white world, and almost everyone else lives in the gray world. I absolutely love, and have zero capacity to hate or be mad at anyone for more than a few hours. (However, I have learned to let people drop out of my forward motion life.)
The problem with that gray world is that as the pendulum has been swinging on its leftward path, the bar of what is good and true and acceptable has been sliding ever faster toward the reality that has changed our very defined world to a world where anything goes . . . good becomes bad . . . bad becomes good . . . an upside down world (like in the dark ages) – and that pendulum swings left and right over a couple a hundred years – over and over again each time reaching further left and further right. Some of us were born with a strong sense of what is true and right for a healthy and moral people celebrating life and our Creator – – – in the opposite world man becomes a more self-righteous anti-life people who justify in their own minds every bad thing they do. (Abortion, Anti-Bill of Rights. and such) The advice I received was to continue my life with my view of the world. Some will fall in and be close to me, and some will fall out. Those that fall out – let them go easily. That is better than betraying who I am to myself and my Creator.
Two hundred years ago, my views were in sync. Learning about how others think also helped my career skyrocket. I understood those whose work lives were in my care – and understanding others better, I was able to be less rigid in those areas where it was not detrimental to anyone or the corporation, and remain rigid where it made a positive change for all concerned. Life isn’t easy – just good.

The Epiphany:
The Lord didn’t make me this way because I am better than any other human being in general. In my late twenties, I would go home and pray because people kept coming to me to make the decisions. That took some getting used to. Now that it is finished . . . He just made me this way to be an example of truly living. Some hated me and made me cry; but in my stubbornness of right and wrong, I would cling to what I knew was right. When I made a mistake, I owned it and paid the price and tried to learn from it. From two hundred years ago when most Americans were like me – where I believed I belonged – – – unto today when relatively few are like me – – – there had to be thousands of us who, even with all our human failings, will stand to the end and say with conviction, this is right and that is wrong – and know beyond any doubt of what we believe.

We believe that God, our Creator exists, and when we embrace that the Gospel of Jesus Christ was totally possible for God, and our belief and relationship with Him is central to knowing what is right and what is wrong, our success is not recognized by many. That is because it is not measured in the prizes of this world. Sadly, when it is convenient for others to use people like me, we usually don’t see it coming . . . and in the end, is the amazing epiphany that it really didn’t matter one whit. In the end, I am still who I am, spiritually unscathed and among the beloved of my Lord.
Even though the pendulum is far left, there are millions of us of strong belief in the here and now to help everyone remember – what the truth of our Creation is – what is really important in living – what justice is – and that the truth of any matter, large or small, is supremely important. No, we are not better than anyone . . . just more fortunate. Being truth seekers, we simply refuse to live the CONVENIENT lies that so many accept without question. Yes, I cry when I am deceived. Yes, I cry when someone hurts me. And then I simply let them go their way knowing I did all I could, in my flawed humanity, to be an example of one who loves the Lord and truth – and everything else in life pales small in the comparison.